rawrawrawrawrarar.

so yeaaaah. not posted in a while. had four exams this week :( and currently have hair dye on my head. going #3 dark brown (as usual) in time for my auntie's wedding that is tomorrow. a nice 4/5 hour drive to norwich. nice one. i look like cinderella in my dress and heels, it's great. i feel like a little girl again. really boosted my confidence. ;D so hopefully when i come back sunday, i'll be able to see matt. hopefully seeing him tonight too when i take this dye off. should be good. ;D anyway time to take dye off. so yeaaah, byeeeeeeee. ;DD

toomuchsparetimebitchez.

so i really should be doing english coursework, but i've spent the whole morning reading through quotes. so i'll leave you with two of my favourites. ;D


” did you know when you dream about a person, that person went to sleep thinking of you? did you know when the person you like looks at you and then looks down, they’re crazy about you? did you know that when a person looks at you directly in the eyes they love you more than you think? did you know when that person looks at you alot they can’t live without you? did you know when they leave, they say bye too much because they don’t want to let you go? “


"You're only as tall as your heart will let you be and you're only as small as the world will make you seem."
— Christopher Drew

i'm a picture without a frame.
a poem without a rhyme.
a car with three wheels.
a sun without fire.
i am a gun without bullets.
i am the truth without someone to hear it.
i am a feeling without someone to feel it.
this is who i am.
a mess without you, something beautiful with you. <3

23/04/10 + 24/04/10.

one word; amazing! last night i went out with jade matt jack jimmy and tonya, was quite good. falling in a ditch and being given the nickname "ditch girl" then me and tonya decided to sit on the corner where we came up with a great name "height of light" for an album haha, this was 'cos of a car and it's extremely bright headlights that were at the same height as us (we were sitting on the floor like tramps, obviously. ;D) and then i missed my bus, as i normally do so matt walked me home, which was quite fun. then we stayed by co op for like half an hour before saying bye. mwuhaha. then i ended up falling asleep whilst on my laptop, which led to a dream about me sleeping in and not getting up early enough to go swimming, this dream scared me and woke me up for 10 to 8, which i then got ready but (sorry lucy louise and sarah) it took me ages. and i didn't get hanley 'til like, 9. then after we met lucy and sarah (louise started walking on without noticing them lmaoo) we went and got another bus to newcastle. where louise was hating on the driver 'cos he was moody hehe. then we went to costa, where everyone had something but me, it was too early for me. then we went swimmmmminnnngggg. which was quite funny 'cos lucy had cramp in her toes which made them spread out without her control, was great, her expression. i don't think i've ever laughed so much in my life. then louise's swimming costume was that shiny that when she got out of the pool i could see my reflection in her arse, which made her want to kill me 'cos i was laughing for ages about it. haha. then something not so great happened, but we'll leave that out. ;D me and sarah acted like five year olds and went on the slide. then we swam some. when we left we went to mcdonalds/greggs/poundland/subway all for food lmao (fatty's we are. ;D) and after that we got the bus back to hanley, then to mine. when i went in mine and got what i needed, we went to louises and spent ages waiting for her to get changed, so we sat on the trampoline where lucy bonded with the dog. and me and sarah got very static, we were playing shock wars, we were terrified to even touch ANYTHING. then after that matt came down and we went by the river trent where lucy louise and sarah made up a dance, meanwhile me and matt were sitting down having a grass fight. then lucy and sarah needed to go, so we walked them to the bus stop where they ran for the bus, and missed it. but literally 3 seconds later, another one pulled up, so they got on that one. louise then went and got a chip bap, which was when i bumped in to an old friend, josh abraham ;D after that louise went, so me and matt went and sat on the grass in the park for about an hour and half, then i had to go so he walked back with me. then i got home, realised i had sunburn, couldn't go out and got pinned down to a table whilst having after sun put on me (MOST PAINFUL THING EVER) well, that's blatantly my two days. let's hope tomorrow's great too. ;D byezzzz. xxxxxxxxx

plsplsplspls.

mum, i'd love you forever if the day i turn 16, you got me these. (L)

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today was absolutely great. thanks to the nice weather we got to sit outside for once at school rather then spend our dinner in the canteen. obv i saw matt which makes every day fantastic, i had a good bitch with lucy in double it. a nice bitch with jade ellie and foggy in chemistry and a good G with lisha lucy and zoe in english. also, MRS BLOORE MOVED ME TO A NORMAL SEAT IN MATHS. NO MORE ISOLATED DESK PUSHED UP AGAINST THE WALL. it's next to the most annoying person ever, but it's better than no one. :D

:@ :@ :@ :@

wow, you really chose a day to piss me off. you fucking prick. who the fuck are you? i don't even think i can class you as a fucking person anymore, you're actually a monster. it's her how she's fucking changed you, all of a sudden "goodbye old friends, hello newcastle" well you can fuck off if you think you're ever welcome back near me, you've pissed me off so fucking much that i could just actually punch you so fucking hard then smash a brick in your fucking face. :@ godddddd, i don't think you know how much you've annoyed me. there's nothing better than my ex boyfriend sitting there and calling me a fucking whore to look big in front of his mates, well we'll see who's big when you have no mates left. fucking wanker. :@

courseworkschoolcourseworkschoolcoursework.

back to the whole stress about school, why can't we just take our GCSE's next year? like seriously.. just to add on, i have lost ALL my graphics work and i'm still stuck with my english. :/ i also have people down my ear "you out today" well just to say. I AM NOT OUT. DO NOT ASK ME AGAIN. :/

i wish i could remember to post.

so yeah, got up real early this morning to go swimming. need to burn a few calories tbh. i was to loose at least 6lbs. please please please. i wanna be skinny. :/ but heey, i'll achieve that one day. we were comparing tans in the pool, i was impressed as i'm really tanned compared to louise lucy and tori. ;D we then went to mcdonalds and lucy got stressed because the ordering system was chaos. haha. oh oh also i forgot to post yesterday, cos i wasn't very well. but i got so bored at home that me and tori decided to go for a walk round the river trent, it was pretty good cos it was warm. ;D

workworkwork.

so yeah, seen as i'm ill, i best hit the books. i was ready to finish all my english today, until i realised i forgot to put it on my memory stick, so i don't have it at home. worst part is that it was meant to be in before easter but i missed loads of lessons so she gave me extra time. :/ so i guess i'll stick to my maths h/w. urgh, i actually hate maths, the teacher gives me chills too, she's a right old bat and she put me on this stupid little table on my own right at the front of the room. :/ well, at least lastnight was good. sitting on webcam with jack barbzzzz. so i'll put a picture from when i was on cam to him up. <3

as the days roll in

what an amazing couple of days. (L)
i stopped jades monday, after going up northwood and meir with our boyfriends matt and connor. love you matt. :)
we got back to jades at about ten where she then raped me with easter egg, but heeeey, i'll live. haha. we decided to watch picture this because we're cool like thatt. we woke up about 9 and went up hanley for 10 so jade could have her hair done, which btw, is lush. we tried stuff on in topshop and i fell in love with a crop top, jade fell in love with a dress. now i just need £35 to buy that top. we then went back to jades to do some sunbathing. it was great. got a bit of a tan to me too. ;D but yeah, i'm gonna go now because i'm getting ready to go up hanley to meet jade and matt. (L). oh btw, someone buy me some extensions please? i fell in love with jades. ;D

these titles are hard to think of.

yesterday was amazing, went up plaza with matt lisha and ryan. it was good, being let out had never felt better, thankyou so much for ungrounding me. (L)

stolen from louise who stole it from sarah. :3

10 Things you want:
1. LOOSE WEIGHT. DIET. DIET. DIET.
2. grow my hair cos i hate my hair so so much. cos i look like a boyyyy.
3. get a job to get some moneyzzz.
4. keep this relationship lasting, matt. (L).
5. have an amazing summer 2010.
6. t4 on the beach
7. get a husky and call it champsky
8. actually wear some jeans rather than just shorts/skirts/dresses.
9. not get grounded again
10. a huge shopping spree

9 Musicians/bands you love (in no order):
1. ATL ATL ATL
2. LMFAO
3. daisy dares you
4. OWL CITY
5. you me at six
6. nevershoutnever
7. taylor swift
8. TOM MILSOM
9. stereophonics

8 Things you do everyday:
1. eat.
2. brush my teeth.
3. laptop.
4. bath/shower.
5. speak to matt.
6. ipod.
7. sleep.
8. moan.

7 Things you enjoy:
1. being off school
2. going on holiday
3. spending time with matt
4. family days out
5. having something to do
6. musicccc
7. hollyoaks

6 Things that will always win your heart:
1. matt
2. kind heart
3. humour
4. not over confident
5. something different
6. a good listener

5 Favorites: Movie, song, book, food, season:
• grease
• weightless - all time low
• face
• pastaaa
• summer

4 Smells you enjoy:
1. lily's
2. candyfloss
3. ted baker perfumee
4. lucys perfumeee - daisy.

3 Places you want to go:
1. norway
2. thailand
3. st lucia again

2 Favorite holidays:
1. st lucia for auntie's wedding.
2. newquay with family and friends.

1 Person you’d marry on the spot:
1. christopher drew (nevershoutnever)

last night was amazing, my baby came down to see me when my parents went out, of course they didn't know, and still don't. and today my mum said i can go out cos it's nice weather. ;D (L).

DAY #2 IN THE BIG BROTHER HOUSE.

oh my godddddddddddddddd. second day of being grounded. at least i had matt to keep me company on msn, i love you gorgeous(L). being bored ended up driving me insane, so i went and sat in the garden because it's such a beautiful day. so i'll leave you with a picture of me in the garden. :)(L)

urghhh.

one day of being grounded over. hopefully i'll be allowed out tomorrow. i love you matttt (L).

yayayayayay.

hopefully going for a picnic tomorrow with louise, sarz and lucy. should be great. :) going to sit down my the river trent. just depending on the weather now. please please please (yn). i might even get time to go see my baby after, love you matt. :)(L).

doodeedoo.

i'm craving a trip to costa right now tbh. sucks that i'm grounded. :(
but yeah, as soon as i'm ungrounded looks like i'll have to get myself up there with louise lucy sarz frankie und zoe. cos a nice hot chocolate and a salad sandwich sounds great right now.

just a little update.

5/4/10 matthew smith i bloody love you baby. (L)

so yeah, grounded for the duration of the easter hols. nice one mum. (Y)

all thanks to my stupid ass brother being such a prick always using my phone to ring his precious girlfriend, when i don't see why she can't ring him. :@

you're a joke.

i was loyal to you, a good friend and what you just did to me shows that what i did was the opposite to what i should have done. you walk round on your high horse all day long, yet what you don't know is that everyone see's you different to how you see yourself. a complete bitch. today has shown who my real friends are. :/

HAPPY EASTERRR.

happy easter kidda'sssssss. so yeahhhh, me and jack are over. apparently on a break but pffft. i am currently with my baby kade-daniel, i bloody love him. my gorgeous bestie. i'm on skype to ricky atm and it's hilarioussssss. so yeah, lovessssssss//// oh and someone get me a recording contract pls. i wanna sing for a living. kfnxbiiii#####xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

shalalalala.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOUISE-UMSSSSSS!

so yeah, this afternoon was gr888. went to ash bank for louise's birthday.

jack comes home tonight, i finally get to speak to my baby, i missed him. (L)

so yeah, slightly hungover thanks to too much to drink lastnight, but hey, i had fun.

so yeeeee, i have like, under two hours til jack gets home. BUTTERFLIESSSS MANZZZZZ.

so yeahh....i'm just going to write a load of crap here cos i'm bored. ;D there's nothing to talk about now i'm home alone. me and my mother just had a conversation about her thoughts, she thinks i should be a glamour model when i'm older for various reasons. i couldn't help but laugh histerically and then i asked if sarcasm was applied, turns out it wasn't :/ haha. omfgggggg the last ten minutes has laster foreverrrrr. HURRY HOME JACKKK. :( if he's not back til like, 10 i think i may cry. paha i sound like a right sad act sitting here writing a load of rubbish but i'm so bored. h8in lyf 2k10. lies. i love my life. zomgggggggggggg, tom milsom is fantastic, yet only me and sarz seem to know of him. lucy made me watch quite an amusing video lastnight. top 60 african names or something like that. GURRRRRRRRRRLLLLLLLLL. so yeah, i'm watching hollyoaks and i'm actually gripping my chair because i don't want loretta to die. i like her and jake. hi5 for me being sadddddddddddd. k i'm bored of right nao. tratratra.

a trip down memory lane.

and yet some reason everytime i speak to you the memories come flooding in, like the crashing waves on a sinking ship. and no matter how much i stop myself, i can't forget you. i never can and i never will.

i'd love you forever..

I REALLY WANT A LIZARD. I WANT TWO. ONE CALLED SPIKE AND ONE CALLED MIKA. PLEASEEEEE MUMMMMMMMMM. :}

in an ideal world.

i love seeing all these ideas of what people want to be when they're older, however they all make me chuckle because they consist of no organisation. so i thought i'd share mine. i would like to finish school after taking my GCSE's and then going to college to get my a-levels in science and also take a btec course in photography, i then want to go to staffs uni to complete a course on forensic science, then become successful in forensic photography, to then move to miami and continue to surf my life away on the top miami beaches and have my gorgeous boyfriend jack gordon next to me the whole way, but to move to miami i think i'd take all my friends and my familyy. :} but for now, i'd like to keep everything the same because life is gr8888888. and i shall leave you with a recent profile picture because i haven't posted any pictures of my new hairrr. :}